Disruption

Friday I received a package from home with some very important essentials (I have ranked them in order of most important to least important): Swedish fish, Hershey’s Hugs, winter coat, t-shirt and camisole, lunch bag, Crystal Light packets, inhaler.  All of these items were crammed in a medium USPS flat-rate box.  I was completely blown away with how much my mom shoved in that box!  I was also amazed that the box arrived intact without any issues!  The mail here in Mexico is sketchy at best, and after hearing horror stories about boxes being lost and held by customs agents in Mexico City, I didn’t think the box would ever arrive.  I now feel ready to face the week, Winter, and running!  Thanks mom!

In the last blog I mentioned that I’m reading the book The Dream Giver: Following Your God-Given Destiny by Bruce Wilkinson.  I’ve finished the parable portion (the first fourth of the book), and instead of being encouraged, I find myself a bit disheartened.  The main character, Ordinary, meets many challenges and struggles in pursuit of his Dream.  He eventually comes to the city in which he is to accomplish his Dream.  After a little while, the Dream Giver tells Ordinary that he needs to move on and pursue his dream in a new place.  Like Ordinary, I felt a stirring in my comfortable life in Colorado Springs which led me to Mexico.  And now that I’m here, I just want to be back in the land of the familiar.  The thought that as soon as I’m comfortable I will have to move again is daunting and unwelcome.  Is this what my life is going to be like?  Am I destined to live a life of discomfort and constant disruption?  This is not a happy thought, and one that leads me to ask, “Lord, what are you doing in my life?”  Now of course I still of 3/4 of the book to go, so maybe I’ll find some encouragement yet, but I’m not holding out for it.  My parents’ pastor told me he would be praying that God would disrupt my life while in Mexico, and I can say without hesitation that his prayer is being answered!  God is working on my heart and my mind; I am so far outside of my comfort zone that I don’t even know where to look to catch a glimpse of it.  In a way I’m pretty excited, but mostly I’m just terrified.

I’ll let you know how the rest of the book goes.