It’s been about four months since I last posted on my
blog. *Sigh* I’ve become one of those bloggers… Since my
last update in March from Kenya, I haven’t been seeking God out to gain His
insight partially because I allowed myself to be taken over by technology and
partially because I didn’t know where to start.
And since my blogs are usually inspired by these "God Encounters", you can usually tell when I'm not having them...
Television is a great distractor. I didn’t know how many shows I was missing
until I had so many channels to watch!
But when those channels had nothing of interest to be seen, I always had
my iPad to resort to for mindless entertainment. While I view TV and technology in general a great
thing, I have to be careful not to let it consume me. In hindsight, I think I spent so much time
watching TV and playing with my iPad to fill the void of waiting. I feel like God has been telling me to wait
(and continues to do so today). Coming
home from Kenya, I didn’t really have anything to look forward to. I didn’t have a job prospect. I didn’t have a “mission trip” to plan. I didn’t have anything to pour myself
into. Ergo, technology became my
filler.
Even after I was offered a high school teaching position in
Colorado Springs (which is a funny story—you should ask me about it if you
don’t already know it), God continued to shift things like housing situations
so I could not have my future completely planned out but would have to continue
waiting.
So now I’m sitting in a friend’s house, who has graciously
offered me a place to stay until I find somewhere to live, and a storage space
for all of my crap. I am in a humbling
state of being. For someone who has always
been a “do-it-yourself” person and always had a plan, it’s challenging to allow
others to provide for my needs. I am
incredibly grateful for my family and friends who have rallied around me in
this period of waiting, yet I find myself straddling the line of despair and
trust. And my friend’s house is a great
place to be as I figure out which side of the line to choose. There are no technological distractions in
her house. No TV. No internet.
So instead of finding out the latest happenings on FB this morning, I am
left to spending time reading my Bible, chatting with God, and typing up my
thoughts—a very good place to be.
Luke chapter one tells of two impossible situations; two
women who could not be pregnant ARE pregnant.
The first woman is far beyond the years of conceiving, and the other is
a young abstinent teenager. If God can
play with our physiology, which He designed in the first place, and make the
impossible happen, He can certainly work out whatever situation in my life that
seems un-work-out-able. “For nothing is impossible with God” (Luke
1:37, emphasis mine).
Thanks to Starbucks for the "free" wifi to post my blog (and catch up on my missing distractions...)! And thanks to the Stevens' for the Starbucks gift card that enabled me to use the "free" wifi!
We`ve read your blog over the past days, and we feel really sorry you had to live all of this. You see, we all have problems in our lives, we all try really hard to find why god gave us this life, and why the hell are we here, with all this people, all this perspectives, all this voices. 7th grade was just a step for forming ourselves as adults. As men and woman who know about life and constantly try to succeed in it as if it was a giant chess game where we all try to have dominance over each other, but most importantly, ourselves. Just like you. We still remember how positive and proactive you were to us and how good teacher you were in every aspect, we all appreciate your motivation you gave us when it was necessary. We still think you are a great teacher, and we all miss you. You showed us that teaching is not a profession, or a job, it's an adventure Miss Kari. Its all an adventure. We think that god dosent keep us waiting, we are the ones who wait for someone to come. What you are doing is one of the most incredible things we have seen from a human being. You are trying really hard to find yourself. But at the same time we feel that you may be confused. The truth is, god will not save us, he will give us the paths to save ourselves. All we have to do is to stop and observe, try to find peace in ourselves and then in our surroundings. Try to see MIss Kari, where does god wants you to go. And as a little fish told all of us, "Just keep swiming". Dont let that light in yourself, that great and proactive light, shut down. Keep swiming, keep on going with the great and vast adventure of life. Because remember, all 103 of us believe in ourselves, and we do this because you believed in us, now its your turn. ;)
ReplyDeleteSincerely,
Your 6th grade studeants.