No, I don’t scatter in the light, nor do I congregate in
mass with others like me (except on Sundays).
But have you ever noticed that when a cockroach nears the end of its
life, it will flip over on its back?
Today as I was pinning a piece of fabric to hem on the floor
of my room, I found a dead cockroach on his back. Not wanting to pick him up and dispose of his
carcass at that moment in time, I blew at him to move the body out of the way. When the air hit his little body, it flipped
him over and he wiggled his legs—“not dead yet” as my father would say quoting
one of his favorite movies of all times.
After a few unsteady rocks, he flipped over on his back again.
Myriad circumstances cause me to flip over on my back (death
not being one yet), primarily exhaustion—physical, mental, and/or
spiritual. Occasionally a puff of
encouragement will come from a friend and it will flip me back on my feet, but
not being ready yet, I flop back over.
Unlike a cockroach, I’m not giving up on living. I simply need some time to just lay
there.
As I observed the cockroach and made my ponderings, the song
“Show Me” by Audrey Assad came to mind.
Through the course of the song, the author mentions all the things God
can do and the many ways He can use her, but for now she just wants to be and
she just wants God to be with her. I
believe God is and will continue to use me for His purposes, and that excites
me. But sometimes I just need to lay on
my back like a cockroach, but not dead, and allow God to wash over me.
*My use of simile vs. metaphor is intentional. I am NOT a cockroach but simply share a few
characteristics with one. English lesson
over. Class dismissed!
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